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The Fleeting Sense of Optimism

from The Dissection by Cicada Swarm

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Lyrics by Adam Morton, written about his father

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How has it already been a year?
I've been lost with no guidance, surrounded by fear
Fear of not following your word, of letting you pass
In vain
The immense amount of pain I feel will never compare to what
You went through
To what you beat twice which
Overcame you
The one thing that beat you is the one thing we all fear
Stage four and you were no more
Watching the last breath escape from your lungs
Was the devastating blow that
Made me not feel for months
The look in your eyes as there was
Nothing left

So I'm numbing every ounce of pain with some numbing effect so I can finally get some sleep
But every time I close my eyes I see that yours are open, I finally saw you in myself
A creature of habit that turns into
Reality

Then turns reality into shit
Then back to an ugly reality

I still feel guilty
For not having
A one and one
And forgiving everything you've done

I wish there was some time for that but the damage
Is done

We were told the best of news
That's why we were so confused
When three months later you were back in the chemo room
Remission was a thing of the past
Like a dream that's slowly fading away
We tried to live each day by day but we all knew you were fading away

Take this pill two
Times a day maybe
This will keep the
Cancer away

A statement so bold
We would believe anything we were told

Fear is the greatest mind haze, at times you're counting the days of lucidity

The days with no pity
When he knew your name
The rest were filled with pain
And those grew more plenty

So we sat next to your side
As we cried
And sobbed as you
Silently
Died

And sobbed as you
Silently
Died

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from The Dissection, released February 28, 2021

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Cicada Swarm Hesperia, California

Metal band from the High Desert

Drums - Adam Morton
Vocals - Josh McCue
Bass - Andrew Bowen
Guitar - Eli Castillo

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